Thursday, December 19, 2013

DEC 18, 2013 - Feeling Invisible....

      *Song of the Day: The Eels- Mansion of Los Feliz 

       I'm not sure what more I can do to not be invincible to important people in my life. I've lost 70lbs, wear make-up (I know right ), and real GIRL CLOTHES. I use these for only funerals and weddings, but now I'm wearing them practically everyday.  

       It doesn't sound like a big difference, but for those who know me know it is.  I'm used to dressing to hide myself; men's 2x t-shirts and 38 baggy shorts and pants. 

         I still get passed over, treated like one of the guys, and not considered when it comes to opening doors or compliments.
   
      I'm tired of being that girl that is a tomboy, and doesn't care about themselves outwardly.  I've worked really hard to look the way I do now, and it's hurtful and mostly disappointing when people don't acknowledge or say anything nice. 

       I can't take it much more.  I'm pretty, skinnier, and good-hearted.  I deserve to be told these things.  I don't understand it.  What more can I do?